Devastate

Devastate

 I am confused with my role my purpose and my priorities. Time is rushing like tidal waves while I lay flat by the shore.

 I no longer have the strength. I no longer have the commitment.

 And when I look at her, she is in the limelight. I had enough of my susceptibilities. What has become of me and the decisions I need to make is slowly tearing me apart.

I hate knowing.

I hate bad thoughts. 

Mood: black

Chasing time

Time: 2:05 am 

Haven't been touching up this little space in awhile and my phone's full storage space has been alerting me every day that my photos are accumulating. The march holidays are ending and I have a short getaway to malacca with the hockey team. And I'm running out of time, in a sense that I have no time for deep emotional thoughts no time for work and guilt builds up to a point I can collapse.

 While I find my motivation to do things right and reset my priorities, I promise to blog a little by a little each day and come up with a post to fulfill what I ever said- that is, to make this blog more meaningful. Not just for show but for a purpose. 

It's late at night and I'm in my usual deep thoughts. These thoughts are killing me. I've been through these thoughts and I wasn't careful which led me to the wrong decision. Time will tell me if I should snap out of these. Meanwhile I should catch some sleep, I need the energy.  And I will make this little space a comfort to read. Goodnight earth goodnight moon and goodnight to you. 

Lets all dream sweet.

XX,

Mood: navy blue